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i have cut before and like it felt so nice...i carved the word fat into my stomach because i feel so bad about myself and like i need to know that its not a good habit but i have purged before...i loved that i could get all o my food out without working out because i HATE working out. but like purging was simply the best thing ever <3 i lost my tool for cutting so i need to find another one but for now I'm using a rock.
I use rocks now too because I do want any more scars but now I just have giant green bruises on my legs. I’m horrible at making myself throw up (I have really bad gag reflexes) but I’ve starved myself.. many times. For me it was also a control thing- like as long as I wasn’t eating I had control over my body and my life but that wasn’t true. I advise you get some help, because right now, purging and cutting will make you feel like you have control but in gets uncontrollable. And you are probably gorgeous and don’t see it because it’s so hard to see the beauty and worth in ourselves. Get better <3 |
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