Baby Blood

♥ 39
→ 22 May 12 at 9 pm My suicide note from February~

Goodbye to this horrid world. You have triggered me and now I am finally done. I feel like I have a big weight on my shoulders. When friends stop talking to me, all I want to do is die. It’s sickening. Time goes so slowly, but so fast. I miss being a child and playing and playing on scooters with Sarah. I miss having my daddy read me stories before bed. I miss Lechi and I miss Cassava and I miss the many things that used to be. It sickens me that I live in the past because I’ll never be able to go back and that’s all I want. Mama and daddy and Madeline, I LOVE YOU <3 I may not show it and I may just be a bitch about cleaning all the time, and I’m sorry for that. You have to understand that this isn’t your fault. It never was. And I love you guys and I’m sorry. Hallie and Sarah, thank you for always being there for me <3 Merci beaucoup mes meilleur amis. Je vous adore. I’ve had so many amazing memories and you are so perfect it’s incredible. But I am so very sad and I have been every day. This life I have is shit and I’m SO FUCKING DEAD I CAN’T TAKE IT. Remember that I love you. You go on forever and I’ll exist only in your memory but those fade so i guess I’ll fade too but that’s ok because I want to fade. I can’t go on, I can’t go on it’s too much THE BLADE IS CALLING ME I KNOW and it’s so strange. I’ll try to get it and stab it through my fucking heart. I hate myself. I am nothing right. Goodbye may seem forever, farewell is like the end, but in my heart is the memory, and there you’ll always be. I love you Jordan. I love you and I know you won’t care if I die. I love you Mia, I love you Isabelle. This is finally forever and I’m so happy that today is goodbye. I’m sorry for living. Maybe I can Aquire, what I actually desire, maybe I could see what I really want to be, maybe I could rise above, all the people I always loved, maybe it’s my fate, to be at ths fat weight, maybe I could lie, and pretend I don’t want to die. I’m so sorry. Why does my heart go on beating, why do these eyes of mine cry.Today is Goodbye. The happiest goodbye. Goodbye to this horrible world. I hate it all.

je suis rien

My suicide note from February~
Goodbye to this horrid world. You have triggered me and now I am finally done. I feel like I have a big weight on my shoulders. When friends stop talking to me, all I want to do is die. It’s sickening. Time goes so slowly, but so fast. I miss being a child and playing and playing on scooters with Sarah. I miss having my daddy read me stories before bed. I miss Lechi and I miss Cassava and I miss the many things that used to be. It sickens me that I live in the past because I’ll never be able to go back and that’s all I want. Mama and daddy and Madeline, I LOVE YOU <3 I may not show it and I may just be a bitch about cleaning all the time, and I’m sorry for that. You have to understand that this isn’t your fault. It never was. And I love you guys and I’m sorry. Hallie and Sarah, thank you for always being there for me <3 Merci beaucoup mes meilleur amis. Je vous adore. I’ve had so many amazing memories and you are so perfect it’s incredible. But I am so very sad and I have been every day. This life I have is shit and I’m SO FUCKING DEAD I CAN’T TAKE IT. Remember that I love you. You go on forever and I’ll exist only in your memory but those fade so i guess I’ll fade too but that’s ok because I want to fade. I can’t go on, I can’t go on it’s too much THE BLADE IS CALLING ME I KNOW and it’s so strange. I’ll try to get it and stab it through my fucking heart. I hate myself. I am nothing right. Goodbye may seem forever, farewell is like the end, but in my heart is the memory, and there you’ll always be. I love you Jordan. I love you and I know you won’t care if I die. I love you Mia, I love you Isabelle. This is finally forever and I’m so happy that today is goodbye. I’m sorry for living. Maybe I can Aquire, what I actually desire, maybe I could see what I really want to be, maybe I could rise above, all the people I always loved, maybe it’s my fate, to be at ths fat weight, maybe I could lie, and pretend I don’t want to die. I’m so sorry. Why does my heart go on beating, why do these eyes of mine cry.Today is Goodbye. The happiest goodbye. Goodbye to this horrible world. I hate it all.
je suis rien

♥ 28
→ 25 Apr 12 at 3 pm (Source: sliceyourwrists)

♥ 9
→ 19 Apr 12 at 8 pm

If only, if only
I had a gun
to take me away
to a place that’s more fun
I could live in your memory
as “the happy little gall”
but in actuality
I’m your sad confused pall
it would be over
“AT LAST HOORAY”!
I’d miss a bit of it
but I think it’s okay.

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